Week 23🙉

Okay L👁👁K at me! I am travelling in a car and I managed to find all the right buttons to hook me up on my phone to get this blog post done! Another clicking till it works blog success story!

Clicking is something I experienced after my 3 day silent retreat in the woods. I was able to have the long extended hours to be in the silence, soak up the strength of the majestic trees and surrender to the Maker of us all.

I spent the first portion of the time figuring out the wood stove, and other little practical logistics. I was the gentle observer of this focused busy work behavior! I could sense I also had an emotional hazmat suit on protecting me from all the potential monsters and boogie men, lurking in the darkness in particular. The good news is I never got totally frightened as I would have in the past and that was encouraging! (There is more space in you, then YOU leah! Trust the space, not the little space behind your eyes!)

That has been the big lesson for me in this course. I must master my emotions which was so well aligned with Og’s scroll this month. I did a tonne of reading, note taking, organizing my notebooks, looking up words in the dictionary and had some beautiful personal revelations. I felt it could have been a day longer as it takes a 1/2 day to get settled and the final day is clouded a little with thoughts of, “I have to go home today.”

I think it should be mandatory for everyone to have time in the silence. Not just the daily sit but the extended version. It’s like we first have to learn to sit still, then we have to learn to think still!

So much peace, freedom and inspiration in that silence. I found myself as always but in a deeper way connected to the trees surrounding the cabin. They got it going on. . .

They stand tall, branches extended up to the creator, withstand all weather conditions, without complaining, relying on their roots to find the necessary nutrients and continuously fulfilling their DMP by cleaning the air for our survival. The fact that their roots are all interconnected and support each other during wind storms is another source of encouragement and message from our infinite all living and loving God.

In context of our law of least resistance I had this vision of death and how we all have to lie down to die. I thought it would be helpful if I could live like I’m lying down. Keeping fully focused on the preciou,s present moment and not caught up in the moods, feelings and opinions of those around me including myself!

Since I’m creating this on the fly I can’t reference my notes but I found a workbook just before I left to go on my retreat on how to write your DMP. Of course you have to address any distractions you are dealing with and come up with the remedy. So I wrote this one that went like this.

When I am in the presence of others and they don’t choose to be present with me, or share the presence of God from within them, I will be hurt but not hardened or focused on that hurt. We are all created with this incredible God given spirit and gift in each one of us. We are at the best version of ourselves and having authentic relationships when we let this light shine for each other!

L👁👁KING forward to living like I’m lying down and being fully present.

If you haven’t found the silence yet, perhaps you will during this time of forced nothingness and quarantined restrictions. There is nothing like it!

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Week 22+ ♨

Well this past two weeks have included the gifts as always as well as more of the . . whaaaaaat? Since I decided to join GO 90 Grow I have been busy trying to navigate my way around the new site and assignments. But as I’ve been reading think and grow rich this struck me.

The secret is not directly named. . . so when those who are ready, and searching for it , may pick it up.

~Napolean Hill

I realized I have been so GC ( greatly confused) with my BP, DMP, PPN’s and a whole lot of other acronyms associated with this course that it is just now after watching and then re- watching the videos in T&GR what I have found what I was searching for, I am finally READY to pick it up. I am clarifying my dreams to make them manageable and enable subby and I to clearly FOCUS on and define what my hearts desire is at this time in history.

Getting to the place where the burning desire makes sense is such a relief and I am so thankful that this Sunday evening I head out on my 3 day silent retreat. Three will be no running water, no flush toilets, no one else on the property. . . just me, the creator of the universe, babies and eyeballs hanging out in the middle of His glorious creation.

I have learned so much about my faith through this course and when I was at mass last weekend I witnessed an insight that was worth sharing. My girls were babysitting these little 3 year old twins and their 3 brothers. It was full on entertainment and much, much more. The following is the reflection I wrote after mass.

WOW!! What a Mass and a moment . . . I EXPERIENCED the love of the Father and the child like faith in the flesh, true living color right before my eyes!! BAM. .. this is it!!!!

One of the little 3 year old girls looks up at my husband with the brightest, sparkly, excited eyes and with those eyes poses a question in that brightness. “Will you do that again?” “MORE??” She was delighting in the Father picking her up and flipping her. It took my breath away. I wanted to take a picture as I knew I was witnessing Heaven on earth, let the children come to me, and have faith like a child all wrapped up in that moment. The pure connection of love and trust and her desire for “MORE” made my heart sing and gave me a burning desire to have that with God, my Father!! The other twin wanted to play finger games and that same sparkle and shameless, joy filled request, “MORE?? . . . Again?” It was so easy to be present in the moment and take it ALL in. My mind was locked into the depth of this precious message and how the Father is waiting, longing to go eye to eye with me.

I feel like the silent retreat is going to be just that. A time of discovering the LOVE of the Father and the burning desire to be that child looking with my brightest, sparkly, excited eyes and my arms above my head saying “MORE”!

Week 21 ✅✝✅

“A negative sign is 1/2 of a positive sign looking for a stroke of vertical awareness.” ~Alan Cohen

This has been true for me this week as I had a bizarre blast from the past that was 1/2 of a positive sign and it took the whole MKW team for me to find that stroke of vertical awareness. ✝ I am thankful for the 7 Laws of the mind, brain science and all that we’ve been learning and applying as I was able to use it to become a better version of myself. I actually had a vision at church of that old useless, good for nothing neuronet being released.

In an adult brain plasticity may be accounted for by the above two mechanisms: creation of new synaptic connections between neurons, and modification of existing synapses.

But it didn’t stop there. After the Sunday call and master mind session Davene invited me to think of it all different. She said I need to LISTEN. Although I was confused on how it related to what I had shared, I continued to think about it. What I came up with was the Law of Substitution. When the negative situation comes to my mind I can substitute it with the word LISTEN. I can add another”stroke of vertical awareness” and make it positive. ✝ As always the dictionary brings more clarity.

LISTEN:
give one’s attention to a sound take notice of and act on what someone says
respond to advice or a request as one is told
make an effort to hear something; be alert and ready to hear something.

I applied what Mark had said a few weeks back about using the energy and clarity we get from the dragons and so I chose to use this one to help me grow. It enabled me to turn the situation from confusion to me being in control and I was able to use that dragon experience to be a trigger for me to LISTEN.

To listen on so many more levels and be aware of where I was giving my attention. Not just LISTENing to the sounds and communication in my life, but even more importantly to LISTEN to the silence. The silence that lives within me. That great big space between each and every atoms that makes up all my cells and therefore my entire being. That great big space designed by and FULL of God, who created the universe, babies and eyeballs. How I long to listen to that silence and acknowledge that space so I can be ALERT and RESPOND to the ADVICE or REQUEST!

I am looking forward to being a LISTENER~ thank you dragon.💖🐲

“Let the wise hear and increase in learning, and the one who understands obtain guidance.”

Proverbs 1:5

week 20 🌱🌿🌳

What we think about grows. As a master at growing inappropriate unfruitful thoughts in my mind. . . I have really appreciated the lessons this week. The words that keep us in our comfort zone are fear, anger, unworthiness, hurt, and guilt. I never really understood this till I reread my notes from the call. Anyhow as I examined the definitions of the words I can see how many of them are based on feelings, perceptions and possibilities. Which means I have a choice. . . all these feelings which serve a purpose on some level (safety) are also taking me away from what I should be focused on. ~ The great adventure and the Life God is calling me to live!

When I looked up all the definitions of the words we were to study and discovered that many of my perceptions of the these words were not entirely correct. The first one that caught my attention was FEAR. So often I would think I had fear around a situation but when I looked up this definition I am using it incorrectly.

Fear:
an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.
“he is prey to irrational fears”
be afraid of (someone or something) as likely to be dangerous, painful, or threatening.

It is not often I feel things to be dangerous, a threat or causing pain. HOWEVER I certainly perceive them that way. But upon reflection it is always the emotional part I am really worried about. Which led me to look up AFRAID.

A·fraid:
feeling fear or anxiety; frightened.
worried that something undesirable will occur or be done.
unwilling or reluctant to do something for fear of the consequences.

As Mark would say, “BAM”! I realized I am afraid and worried about something that “could, may, might” happen in the future but it’s not a given. Og strongly suggests that it is not a good idea to waste the one and only precious moment I have on the future which I don’t have!!

When I examined the rest of the words that keep me in my comfort there were a few things that jumped out at me as well.

Un·wor·thy:
not deserving effort, attention, or respect.
having little value or merit.

How could I EVER be unworthy if I am God’s greatest miracle. I was made first class, by first class and whatever first class wants for me, I am worthy! I have great value as he created a spirit just for me. That makes me humble, not an excuse to sit in the comfort zone in the middle of a pity pool party.

The other thing I noticed were how many times these words focused on FEELINGS and EMOTIONS! Why have I let these things control me when I am in fact, the owner operator and can CHOOSE to let these feelings attach to a thought or. . . not??? (I added guilt trip as the dictionary suggested it and this sample sentence is pretty powerful. ) “let’s skip the guilt trip and talk real, rational reasons”

Guilt:
the fact or state of having committed an offense, crime, violation, or wrong, especially against moral or penal law; culpability:
a feeling of responsibility or remorse for some offense, crime, wrong, etc., whether real or imagined.
to cause to feel guilty (often followed by out or into):
She totally guilted me out, dude. He guilted me into picking up the tab.
See also guilt-trip
guilt trip
an experience of feeling guilty about something, especially when such guilt is excessive, self-indulgent, or unfounded.
“let’s skip the guilt trip and talk real, rational reasons”
make (someone) feel guilty, especially in order to induce them to do something. Hurt Feelings:
unhappiness or sadness caused by someone’s words or actions

An·ger
strong feeling of annoyance, displeasure, or hostility.
fill (someone) with anger; provoke anger in.

The final one ANGER still has that “FEELING” word in there I need more reflecting. I don’t think anger keeps me in my comfort zone, but it sure does keep me from having control.

Knowing what is keeping me in my comfort zone is in fact “comfort”-ing! Cause now I know what I can do to GET OUT! Attach the truth to the situation and focus on the desired outcome, rather then let feelings or appearance keep me in that zone! What we think about grows!🌱🌿🌳

Week 19💞😎

This week has been real. There have been successes, wins, and challenges and more awareness . . . always more awareness.

One gift this week, has been completing my personal challenge in January to read through at least one post of the entire MKE class. It was encouraging to find like minded people, who often wrote just what I needed to hear most at the moment. It was encouraging to learn valuable life lessons from everyone’s journey!!

I had a beautiful vission in my board meeting with God. He took my hand and we were jumping from star to star and eventually landing on Sirius which is nicknamed the “Dog Star“. It is part of the constellation Canis Major, Latin for “the greater dog.” Apparently 3 quadrillion, 729 trillion Earths would fit into the volume of VY Canis Majoris. 🔅🔅🔅🔅🔅. . . That seemed pretty big to me. . . Anyhow I enjoyed the view of earth from there! It kept me focused on the BIG picture, on the infinite, not the finite. It’s been a real gift to see 👀 what you can’t see 👀 from up there!! The only thing visible was selfless acts of love. They shone like a REALLY BRIGHT LIGHT !!

At some points this week I felt defeated and exhausted, I had to put myself to bed for an old fashioned nap!! . . . Then upon waking up, I remembered good old dual thought. . . I have a choice about these situations and feelings. I began to recognize of course I’m tired . . . my mind is expanding beyond it’s normal functioning place. AND . . . It’s okay to be tired, it is bound to wear you out while you’re travelling around to super sized stars!! 😉

I loved concentrating on something for 3 minutes. Haanel reminds us that we feed ourselves no problem each day and I realized it certainly makes sense to meditate on God’s meal plan for our lives. I need to get nourished by his heavenly food for all my thoughts as well! Have a great week filling up on all that is nutritious for your mind, body and soul! 🥦💖🍉🌿🌱

💖💖💖week 18+💖💖💖

Week 18

So this week I noticed how much confidence, assurance and purpose I have. It’s like it came out of nowhere. . . This week I got it. I am the vessel. The vessle that God, the creator of the universe, eye balls and babies is wanting to share a mission of hope, love and freedom with the world. I don’t have to be afraid, I don’t have to be prideful, I don’t have to doubt, I don’t have to be a know it all, (google does that really well), I don’t have to figure it all out…

I just have to know that my mission is right here. . .
(pointing to my solar plexus~if you could see me!)

I have to PRACTICE, PRACTICE, PRACTICE & continue to PRACTICE how to learn to trust. Using the tools we have been gathering in the MKE I realize that through the power of thought and my ability to control my body, mind and spirit I can connect to God, the creator of the universe, eyeballs and babies in the most magnificent, meaningful manner. If I do, he can perform his marvelous work in me and ultimately through me. Knowing this without a shadow of a doubt, makes life soooo simple and straight forward. When confusion, indifference, anxiousness, sorrow, despair, hesitancy, paralysis, restlessness or any other DRAGONS appear I have this system in place!

Just follow the laws of the mind and remember you are NATURE’s Greatest miracle!
💖RELAX
💖PRACTICE
💖FORGIVENESS
💖LAW OF DUAL THOUGHT
💖LAW OF SUBSTITUTION
💖LAW OF GROWTH
💖SUBCONSCIOUS

I was able to reach one of my first goals! Annttee Aaddeevice did her first live video, and I taught the high school Girls Club about some of these 7 laws of the mind. It was a moment. The moment that said, “you were made for this!” Thanks be to God, the creator of the universe, babies and eyeballs!💖💖💖💖💖

WEEK 18!🎇

So I have not been able to embrace that I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious, happy because . . . I actually had my own definitions of the words, not their TRUE definitions.
So I looked them up and thought you might enjoy reading them as well. It adds so much to this sentence as I ask myself. “would you like to have all these incredible things in your life. . . ” AHH yes!! So it’s added more meaning and depth and purpose to this sentence. It was so helpful. Hope it can add value for you too.

WHOLE: all of; entire: in an unbroken or undamaged state; in one piece having all the required or desirable elements, qualities, or characteristics; as good as it is possible to be.
PERFECT: absolute; complete ; having all the required or desirable elements, qualities, or characteristics; as good as it is possible to be.
STRONG: able to withstand great force or pressure.
POWERFUL: Having a strong effect on someone or something
LOVING: feeling or showing great CARE which is the provision of what is necessary for the health, welfare, maintenance, and protection of someone or something.
HARMONIOUS: forming a pleasing or consistent whole
HAPPY: feeling or showing pleasure or contentment

Another gift this week was something I shared in the Alliance Group discussionOkay so this is even more exciting then a bowl of popcorn!! Last night I was doing my night work with subby and BAM. . . I recognized a huge gift! I had a challenging day, in that a dragon visited me via the phone and left me on edge. . . I tried to shake it but I did not SLAY it until This concept “popped” right out at me . .. I have the choice to attach any feeling I WANT to a thought. . . so guess what I choose gratitude! There were so many choices, feel sorry for myself, get angry and never talk to them, be self critical and give my power away or just be grateful??? Knowing that this dragon moment taught me how to use the 7 laws of the mind. I went to bed with a thankful heart instead of the old style heavy heart! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better then popcorn. I LOVE being a dragon slayer, who knew it could be so rewarding and not even frightening for too long! I just need one of those dragon slaying outfits now! 💖💖💖💖💖

Enjoying this journey of becoming a self directed thinker and so glad you are here too!

Week 17

How is it always Friday?? I feel like a week passes like a day~ and a month seems to pass like a week and then suddenly. . . ~ I am pulling out Christmas decorations again! (CHRISTmas is huge thing in our home!)
Anyhow when I realize Friday is here, that means I missed Thursday which=i didn’t write our reflections blog. . . Anyhow we learned last week that in the end, only kindness matters so . . . be kind to me!! It seems upon reflection that dates, times have never been my thing. I have followed a compass since I can remember and will continue to live in the present moment, and LOVE, LOVE, LOVE those in my presence.

AS I reflected on the “I’m behind in this class,” that I kept repeating for weeks I finally asked myself. . . what are you exactly behind in? This course is a journey, not a destination. So how could I possibly be behind?

I know that I want to achieve freedom, liberty, autonomy and peace of mind so I can LOVE more, give more and BE able to be recognize the creator being expressed through me.. . But these desires are part of a JOURNEY. Therefore I need a bucket of grace and a reality check. So I continue to rely on the kind, gentle, caring observer who is busy looking for the good, while these new neuro pathways are erasing the lines from the paper napkin sketch. (Which was never going to build a magnificent bridge to anywhere, anyways) These new pathways and plans are allowing me to become all who God designed me to be in HIS time!! I am not behind in HIS kingdom and will continue to become the light in this weary world!

So if you are bashing yourself with the “i am behind lie” please know it is a journey and the MOST IMPORTANT part is we are ON this journey!! ANd. . .since you are special and there is no one like you, and you are rare and because of that rarity there is great value could you please remember to take the time, and the initiative to make it a PRIORITY to take care of the “rare, precious gift of YOU, no matter where you are on the journey!

I love how we learned this week that we LEARN so much faster when we are having FUN! Thanks be to God, he knit me together with the yellow knitting needles, so I can continue to add laughter, levity and life messages to this world!!! I long to help others on their journey to become self directed thinkers, so they can let LOVE, peace, purpose, and abundance “rain” (abundantly) in their lives too! I have not got ‘er all done. . . but that is MY JOURNEY and I am on the way. . . . and GRATEFUL for this opportunity to know where we are going. This course is fantastic because it gives us a plan and tools to become an amazing architect to allow the greatest mechanism on the planet, to be in fact planted, nurtured, and producing God given fruit for all to eat and repeat!!

This new blueprint is building an awesome bridge with a view of heaven and it looks AMAZING !! “No words can describe,’ says St Paul, what eyes have not seen nor ears heard. I am excited for all us to see our own beautiful, glorious plans!

1 Corinthians, 2:6-16

The True Wisdom.*
6 Yet we do speak a wisdom to those who are mature, but not a wisdom of this age, nor of the rulers of this age who are passing away.7 Rather, we speak God’s wisdom,* mysterious, hidden, which God predetermined before the ages for our glory, 8 and which none of the rulers of this age* knew; for if they had known it, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory.9 But as it is written:“What eye has not seen, and ear has not heard,and what has not entered the human heart,what God has prepared for those who love him,”10 this God has revealed to us through the Spirit. For the Spirit scrutinizes everything, even the depths of God. 11 Among human beings, who knows what pertains to a person except the spirit of the person that is within? Similarly, no one knows what pertains to God except the Spirit of God. 12 We have not received the spirit of the world but the Spirit that is from God, so that we may understand the things freely given us by God. 13 And we speak about them not with words taught by human wisdom, but with words taught by the Spirit, describing spiritual realities in spiritual terms. 14 Now the natural person does not accept what pertains to the Spirit of God, for to him it is foolishness, and he cannot understand it, because it is judged spiritually. 15 The spiritual person, however, can judge everything but is not subject to judgment* by anyone. 16 For “who has known the mind of the Lord, so as to counsel him?” But we have the mind of Christ.

WEEK 16

In the end, only kindness matters. I’ve always loved this song and so perfect for our observation challenge this week. LISTEN to it while you read my blog. If we were to make a video of our recorded kindness this week it would be so touching and hours long!

Seriously. . . press play and take a moment to reflect on the power of KINDNESS, it’s got such a deep message and she has such an empowering touching voice. . . . “If I could tell the world just one thing. . .” ~Jewel

Kindness week, has been my favorite so far!! Getting to know so many more members and the messages back and forth released all kinds of powerful connections and GOOD peptides were released! The habit of being kind, looking for kindness was strengthened and concentrating on what really matters, left less space to worry, or waste our precisous thoughts on useless things. My girls were touched as well and were happy to be included in our kindness challenge. So grateful that this tired and weary world was a little less weary because of our “yes” to take the challenge and make KINDNESS and caring for others our focus!

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It has been such a wonderful gift to witness ~The law of growth in action. ~ What you think about GROWS!! I TRULY believe we have begun to create or strengthen a fabulous new neuro net that helps us shine and be the light we were created to be. Thank you so much for brigning so much JOY and HOPE into my life this week!

Week 15

How exciting to be writing this week 15 post. This week I managed to get a few things sorted out. As I look back on where I started this course and where I am now it’s all God’s divine providence for sure. I realized there are so many hilarious parts, because I got such a late start, I never fully understand the chore cards and plan of action cards so I would just copy whatever mark put on his. Including liberty and true health and that PK 90 workout thing until i finally asked what that was … Anyway as I went along I finally choose my own PPN’S! I did what most Mammas do and I choose helping others and legacy. I kept writing several DMP’s and was fairly consistent in reading them until. . . . I just got too busy at Christmas and I realized after talking to Miss Megan Marvelous Mastermind Mahma, that it was not accurate for me. (BEING bored was a strong clue!) But more on that later as I don’t know how to move this following block which is all about the BF chart that we are doing this week. My word to look for this week was well organized and look . . .

. . . at this super cool ORGANIZATIONAL calendar blessing I received for free from the lady at the grocery store! She just gave it to me randomly! I also want you to know that i began to notice that EVERYTHING that runs. . .is in fact, well organized!!! Especially all God’s creation, but so many effective man made things are incredibly well organized. ~Something I had never thought of before~

So now back to choosing my PPN’s and tying it together with this wonderful text from Haanel!

Haanel Chapter 10: 1. Abundance is a natural law of the Universe. The evidence of this law is conclusive; we see it on every hand. Everywhere Nature is lavish, wasteful, extravagant. Nowhere is economy observed in any created thing. Profusion is manifested in everything. The millions and millions of trees and flowers and plants and animals and the vast scheme of reproduction where the process of creating and recreating is forever going on, all indicates the lavishness with which Nature has made provision for man. That there is an abundance for everyone is evident, but that many fail to participate in this abundance is also evident; they have not yet come into a realization of the Universality of all substance, and that mind is the active principle whereby we are related to the things we desire. “

When shoveling the driveway I was amazed at the beauty and peace the freshly fallen snow brings. It is the great “slow down, snow down” reminder to just be present! (I am so practical so I also liked ticking off the exercise box for the day~!) But. . . the BEST part was an overwhelming reminder of Haanel from Lesson 10. It hit me that there is an abundance for everyone and as I continue to watch the snow be LAVISHLY dumped upon us, I truly BELIEVE it now.

I am THRILLED to mint balls that I have made a decision! After writing out that PPN list (with my left hand) over 7 times and really researching what each word meant and then asking and re asking if it was a need, something I had already or something I needed to have more in my life. . .I FINALLY settled on my two they are . . .

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The snow reminded me of what liberty could look like. It just keeps coming and coming and coming!! Health has always been important to me, but now its nice to see it as foundation to helping others, autonomy, spiritual growth, leaving a legacy, and recognition for creative expression. It is so satisfying to set those in place and now to keep working my DMP until it fits . . . !

As Haanel writes in lesson 15, 4 “Growth is attained through an exchange of the old for the new, of the good for the better; it is a conditional or reciprocal action, for each of us is a complete thought entity and this completeness makes it possible for us to receive only as we give.” 22. Words may become mental places that will live forever, or they may become shacks which the first breeze will carry away. They may delight the eye as well as the ear; they may contain all knowledge; in them we find the history of the past as well as the hope of the future; they are living messengers from which every human and superhuman activity is born.

I am happily exchanging so much old for the new and can’t wait to see what this week brings! SO glad we are all in this together so much to learn and sooooo much to APPLY!!